Whirlwind of Misery

I don't know why I ever tried in this suffocation
I don't know why I even tried to live this lie
I am surrounded by a whirlwind of misery
I do not know if i will ever come out alive
I feel as though I have been stripped to the bone
I feel so hollow that even death is a step forward
Why did I not just die
Why did I not just fall
Everything has been torn from me and I cannot understand how
Everyone has betrayed me and I am left alone
I have seen the eye of the storm, but I am too shattered to go on
I did try,but I did not die, so i am left only to cry