Wednesday, December 29, 2010

i sit here dwelling deeper and deeper
shredding the heart i once held dear
this misery is intensifying every moment i breath
oh how i would enjoy choking out my life

you sit there playing your games
you say all the things she wants to hear
you steal her heart away from my own
oh how i would enjoy tearing out his eyes

she sits there laughing
she listens to the things he says
she falls from his manipulations
oh how i enjoy looking into her sinister eyes

losing my grip
wishing to mend
drugs arent enough
god please finish me off

Friday, December 10, 2010


creeping slowly behind your eyes
taking your mind by suprise
darkness dwelling
chaos melding
forgotten terrors
within the mirrors
truth is a lie
you are about to die
ripping your heart shred to shred
just like me your now dead
sinisterly i laugh
you never had a path
in hell you burn
in nightmares you turn
no escape
you cant fight fate

Thursday, October 28, 2010


Wandering for time has ceased
Yet I continue
I no longer remember freedom
My key
My soul
This dungeon I search
For an exit to forgiveness
I truly give up all hope
How long must I suffer
I answer
I try to forget
Remorse finds the way
Life is forever lost
Guilt has shown it's face
I want to turn away
To return to the way it was
Like nothing had happened
Such things are my imprisonment
If only...
I could find a way to forgiveness
Forever I must search

Wednesday, October 20, 2010

Hidden Truth

All I see is darkness
All I feel is pain
Forever I have searched
I have nothing to show
Too long I have drifted
Too long I have waited
I am becoming cold
I am becoming heartless
I sense my soul has blackened
I know my light has extinguished
Always I will search
Always I will be trapped

Friday, October 15, 2010


Closing in the eternity binds us
Waiting our demise horrified we stand
Reaching though we may never escape
The darkness is overwhelming
We stand but we can never win
This oblivion is our punishment
For we sought absolute power
We fell to our corruptution
Our shredded souls are constant reminder
We slaughterred our own
Forgiveness shall never come

Wednesday, October 13, 2010

Whirlwind of Misery

I don't know why I ever tried in this suffocation
I don't know why I even tried to live this lie
I am surrounded by a whirlwind of misery
I do not know if i will ever come out alive
I feel as though I have been stripped to the bone
I feel so hollow that even death is a step forward
Why did I not just die
Why did I not just fall
Everything has been torn from me and I cannot understand how
Everyone has betrayed me and I am left alone
I have seen the eye of the storm, but I am too shattered to go on
I did try,but I did not die, so i am left only to cry

Thursday, October 7, 2010

Like lambs to the slaughter

I am followed and shall manipulate their untainted minds
Tortured souls they are and I am their leader
They shall do my chaos or I shall shatter thier will
Though they are weak, in numbers I will prevail
These lost souls, so easy to corrupt
I have blackened their spirit and narrowed all thought
They praise me like a god, I will betray every last one
They are destined for destruction so I will quicken the pace
Amateurs, but lethal they have not let me down
So loyal, all commands are met and unrewarded
Though they do not know they have damned themselves and cannot be forgiven
I have desimated their sought salvation like fools they still serve me
Minions of eternity and madness have made me the lord of the darkened throne

Tuesday, October 5, 2010

Alone I Stand

Alone I stand no companions no hope
I stare ahead with only the echoes in my mind
False memories and broken dreams are all I see

Alone I stand in a world of apparent equality
Singled out I feel that no one is there
I pretended to be false but I crumbled and I broke

Alone I stand without a past nor future
I feel that nothing matters emptiness inside
I am only to be what others reject

Alone I Stand yet I am forced to exist
Even still I help others in need
Yet I will not become as they

Alone I Stand in a world of dreams
Forever I am shunned though I try not to be
In this life I cannot be accepted

Alone I stand but still I fall
I am what I am you can never change that
For I stand alone in a world of deceit

Sunday, October 3, 2010

sorry was away for the weekend, and came back to my room trashed, cat feces and cookies everywhere, seriously wtf happened while i was away, the roomates arent here and probably in hiding, wanted to knock someone out when i opened my door, but thats just my luck, leave and things happen in ways that dont compute, missing my nice tidy room, sitting here smokin a cig and trying not to flip, newer posts when im done cleaning this pathetic filth left by the retarded stoners, at least im the kind of stoner who can keep things in order, others are simply a disgrace.

Tuesday, September 28, 2010

State of mind, Time passing us by

Thought i'd try a new style today hope you all enjoy it

I sit here thinking
Wondering why it is things have come to be
The life we have lost and the lives we have gained
I know I wouldnt trade some of these things for the world
But I also know I miss the way it all was back when I was younger
The girls I've loved, the friends no longer with us, being with family laughing
I sit here wondering
What happened to the good old days and why do I hate it now
What happened to the fun and where did the time go
I still have fun sometimes, I still go out and chill
The past has shaped me to who I am and I can't complain
Then times gonna pass me by again, i'm gonna get older, and then I'll miss the days like this

Monday, September 27, 2010


I am a lonely soul
In a world without hope
Rejected by those who are closest
I have nowhere to go
I have always tried
But I can't find another
Am I destined to be lost
Alone I cry
No matter what I do
It turns out the same
I am losing touch
Reality has faded from my grasp

Saturday, September 25, 2010

Dancing in the crimson moonlight

Dancing in the night
crimson rivers overflowing
pain and suffering long diminished
the stench of death arises at every corner
in every alley, in every home
dancing in the night
hearts torn apart
all memories long forgotten
the sinister shadows lengthen
dancing in the night
screaming in agony
my body is being torn apart
a flash of crimson and no more

Thursday, September 23, 2010


I remember the way things used to be when the sky was blue and the world was new and we thought we had a clue.
Now it seems like the skies are grey, all you do is pay, and theres nothing that you can say.
Only thing you can do is look ahead, through the pain you've bled, because someday youll be dead.
But it doesnt matter its all up to you, the skies are still true, and you survived everything you've been through.
So take a step and make amends, no matter what life sends, live it up now cause in the end you'll be wearing depends.

Tuesday, September 21, 2010

Rise into Darkness

Only when I am finished will I know my errors
I see the crimson trails left behind me and all I can do is laugh
I wasn't always this way, I was once a saint
But all of that has changed now
My god has betrayed me and taken all that I have loved from me
I believed I was in hell until the shadows began to caress me
I saw that virtue can only lead to more pain
The good lord? Ha! the church has lied
I know how sick this lord they speak of truly is
They say his son was a saviour?
His son was merely a pawn who dealt only in lies
Now I am the dark dealer
Now I am the keeper
Now I am the one who shall destroy this world
Now I Am The One Who Will Shatter Your God

Sunday, September 19, 2010

Truth behind blue eyes

gonna go on the opposite spectrum today and post a poem i wrote for my first love a long time ago when i was still new to writing hope you all enjoy and feel free to follow and stay tuned for more :)

I see the truth in those eyes
You do not love me but that is a lie
For I see into your heart
The love hidden within the dark
All you need to do is to believe
Just tell me so that you you may be relieved
I will never leave your side
You must not believe you have lied
If you wish to see, My heart will carry you across the sea
Please just come to me, I will truly set you free

thank you everyone for your support so far :)

Saturday, September 18, 2010

Altered Reality

Bleeding corridors, Twisted at last
Madness flowing, The crimson moon has risen
Deceiving light, All rivers darken
Maniacal laughter, This false truth is discovered
Darkness revealed, the mirror shatters
Altered reflection, No longer shall we see
Forgotten Dreams, The nightmare continues
Scarlett lies, This is the final act
Torturous eternity, I die alone

Friday, September 17, 2010

Between the lines

I sit here weaving through time
Looking around me seeing only something so evident
Dark and deprived humanity is within its existence
Shallow breaths break the sinister silence
The echos within our minds are lamented, betrayed

This heart beats in a synchronizing pattern
Weakening, Withering, being torn to shreds
Always I have wondered, why do we go on?
Realizing pain is quintessential for our twisted reality

I watch as you mock us from behind that thin veil
You are not a god, your a man, sick, exactly like us

Thursday, September 16, 2010


Forgotten in death
Remember my last cold breath
Shattered in the wake

hope you all enjoy